What the hell is wrong with me

I may look like i am becoming a b*tch..but actually,its bcos im acting like one..

What the hell is wrong with me?

Why am i playing with ppl's feelings?

Honestly, i dunno what is wrong with me..

I hope to go back to the innocent,naive me i used to be in highschool..

Maybe is because the past molded me into what i am today..

I really don wanna become a "player" ppl perceived me to be..

I don't want ppl to think im collecting boy toys..

or changing bfs like im changing clothes..

or dumping people until i can open a dumpster company..

but the fact is because, i havent found the one im looking for..

The irony of life is..i always fall in love with the wrong guy..

and those guys that is worth falling in love with, is just so not my cup of tea..

my love life is just so complicated..

A Little Update

I feel so happy and relieved~!!! I received my results.. I got 2nd class honours degree! Eventhough I have aimed higher, but i knew i hv already tried my best! Also, The offer letter from the university has arrived.. i got accepted for my masters course! thank God, i was so worried all these while i can't fulfill the minimum entry requirement, which is at least 2nd class degree, sometimes i have nightmares of getting rejected by the uni, i guess i can sigh a breathe of relief now. All my hardwork has paid off.. all those sleepless nights, burning the midnight oil.. i guess i can plan on whats the next step now i have gotten my results.. but i feel sad too, some of my classmates didnt do that well.. I wish we could have happily go for the convocation next year.. but well, what is done is done, no use looking back at the past cause you'll never know what you're missing in the future!

All in all, Everything has been going great.. God has been kind to me :)

Graduation Trip

Eventhough i've been to Pangkor many times, but i've never get tired of it..cause its such a beautiful place!

Ain't it beautiful..

This is the first and best trip i've been with uni mates.. many many happy memories, many many first times..

First time riding on a motorbike..quite scary though.. fell down once n broke my toe nails :(

First time BBQ-ing.. i know im such a siu jeh that i've never cooked anything on a BBQ set before.. Now i know it takes 1 hour to start the fire..

First time riding on a fishing boat!

First time visiting a fishing village!

First time seeing a dog eating FISH!!

First time jumping like a monkey in public with a bunch of crazy monkeys! i tink there's many ppl watching us

First time watching a full sunset by the beach.. how romantic! But got 2 light bulbs there,unfortunately..lol

A love shape..Muaxx!!!

Love ya all...good luck in all your future undertakings :)

Sushi Zanmai

Suddenly had cravings for expensive food, so he brought me to this place.. lol

This one tastes so so only, sushi king's california roll is so much better..

The garlic rice is so damn nice!!!

An obligatory Miso soup

Unagi! my fav! i had 2 plates of these..

The terriyaki beef is also very nice, the meat is so tender and juicy..

Salmon teriyaki.. this also very nice, but cannot compare to the beef..

I tink i burnt a hole in someone's pocket dy..lol

A new beginning

A new beginning for me.. After many many countless sleepless nights, finally submitted my final year project, finally completed my degree.. feel happy and sad at the same time.. sad because i will never see some of my classmates again, i usually always hate to go for classes, cause don't feel like waking up early! But now, i miss the feeling of going to college.. i miss the fun, the laughter, the teasing, the lecturers, the food at the cafeteria, the seminars, the computer lab, the library, everything..

KDU college, after 5 years of studying there, it holds alot of memories for me, both bitter and sweet. Many friendships made, many friendships broken, i found love, the beginning of three relationships, the ending of two. I found the 2 most important men in my life. I also got hurt, got my heartbroken. but its okay, its part of growing up, if i never entered KDU, i would not have learned so much and grow in my knowledge of friendships and love, it widens my horizons. I used to be a naive girl while entering KDU while i was 18, now, at 22, i came out a wiser person.

Eventho studying in KDU is expensive, but I would not trade anything in this world for 5 years in KDU..

Its hard for me to let go of this love that we shared, after what we have been through, but its a tough decision i have to make, to leave you eventually and study abroad, not knowing when i will see you again, but yet i will not be happy living life with a minimum of effort, sitting in a comfort zone and leaving others to achieve things. Sometimes many thoughts run through my head, will i be able to adjust with life over there? will i be able to make new friends? am i closing a door on what could be the love of my life? Yes, its a tough move indeed, its gonna be really hard on both of us, i can imagine myself missing you like crazy after i left you. But "nothing ventured, nothing gained" , I just have to remember whatever the future may brings, I will embrace it.. I am really happy that you support me in my future undertakings, telling me to go for my dreams, eventhough i can see the glimpse of sadness in your eyes, you're not the kind of guy that can hide your feelings easily. Right now, i will just cherish whatever moments that is left with you, so i can live with the memories of you later on..

Something to ponder about..

It seems like we live in a time where people just don’t seem to want to see others surpass them. Its like it’s all a contest. Who can have the most money or have the most attractive companion? Who can have the best job? I say that it shouldn’t matter. Everybody’s purpose in life is different, therefore everybody’s progression in life will be different. That isn’t to say one person is on a “higher” level than the next. A woman who is a single mother and successfully raises her kids is just as important as a Doctor. Hell, for all we know, she was the one who raised that Doctor.

If you have any friends that seem to be a little hesitant on your happiness, then maybe that person is not a friend at all. Maybe its time to reconsider…

A piece of thought

Trophy Girl
An attractive women percieved by people as an object or an accessory to a man. She generally is recognized by her physical appeal. Her mind and intellectual capabilities are of little importance. (urban dictionary)

Example 1: He had no intentions of having a relationship with her, she was his trophy girl.
Example 2: She doesn't have to worry about where her career is going, she is a trophy girl and she will find a man to support her.

What are the warning signs that you're a trophy gf? can anyone enlighten me?